I wish to turn back the clock

These days the sky is so gloomy and it rains almost everyday, does it really affects a person’s mood and thoughts?

I believe it does… it’s affecting me badly.

I have liked gloomy weather, raining days all the time, well, not that I am weird or what. It’s because such weather, you don’t have those hot and sweaty and stinky smell on you. And raining days its cooler and it like a free air-cond at home where you could bake your favourite cakes or cookies in the kitchen.

Then why it changed from good to bad? There are many things affecting me, whether at work or on family and personal. It didn’t just come and go, but it’s rather dragging and it’s slowly killing your mind, your strength.

I know if I do not take things lightly and manage it well, I will eventually end up in visiting psychiatrist. The matter of fact, I know I have lots of family issues neither disturbing me which I know I can’t let it out from my chest, nor letting it go.

Cuz, the fact is, I am belonging to this family which I can’t leave.

If I have the choice, I wish I do not born to suffer this pain, I wish I can turn back the clock, I wish I can leave everything behind without worrying.