Merdeka Baby

National Day!! Malaysia 51st Merdeka!

It’s also my baby’s delivering day, if no accident. Well, instead of mine, my niece gave birth to a baby girl today.

Though I have been very busy these couple of months, and I was intentionally forgetting 31st August too. However, it didn’t really help much.

My mom told me few days ago that her hair stylist gave birth to her son at 40 plus. And it was a 3rd try. She miscarriage her 1st baby, 2nd baby was like my case, an ectopic pregnancy. Hers was more dangerous than mine as hers had completely burst internally and the toxic had blend into the blood and flow into the blood stream. After a year later, she conceived again.

In fact, my mom told me if this is gifted, no matter how it will come to me. If it’s not, my mom did ask me to consider to have a god-child.

What do you all think?? Will this be a good idea than an IVF or adoption?

Finally over!

Finally the eye-catching, the world watching by-election is over!!!

With this by-election fever, there are many people watching how fair it has been carried out and how the ruling government react if the opposition wins.

Apart from that, with this by-election, there are many things happened!!
An abduction case happened on 25 August, Sungai Ara area.
Robbery case happened in Penang International Airport.

That means majority the polices and FRUs have gone to this happening place – Permatang Pauh.

I just wonder, how much money that had spent on this??
Why didn’t they spare some polices for the island and seek help from other states like Kedah or Perak which is under the opposition Government?

I know there are many people were being influence to vote who and who, and who and who will be able to help the country, blah blah blah….

These people only want who and who to win, to lead… but none of these people will understand the residents in that area is so tense, scared and worried. Cuz, the influence people have never been thru the pain 1969 case. Don’t they??

Though who and who has won by majority votes, have anyone thought of what’s the process and procedure for him to step into Parliament? Anyway, I don’t blog anything about politics nor the Government. But this by-election does piss people like me.

From a quiet town became a happening one…. Every day have lots of helicopters flying around from the dawn onwards, lots of people, lots of polices, lots of FRUs, … and lots of banners and streamers.

Feel so good!!

When I was on my way to work this morning, I could see lots of raining clouds on the sky and the weather was cooling.

I always like such weather, cuz, it doesn’t make one feel so hot and agitated. And I believe right now it’s a season change thus, it rains frequently in Penang.

But what makes feel so good this morning apart from the busy & tight schedule that I have, I love seeing beautiful & clear scenery while I was crossing the bridge. I really do not know how to describe it; it was beautiful, marvellous, amazing, spectacular, anything…

I could see all the lights along the coastal line, I could see all the building lights over the island… it was so nice. And that basically make you feel so good!!

On the other hand, it means… haze has gone away!!! Right?

Now am wondering how long will these clear skies last?? Anyway, who cares about it, though we care so much, things are all beyond our control. So, might as well enjoy what we have right now isn’t it?

Well folks, have a great and pleasant weekend!

Busy schedule

I have been really really tired and have been working pretty late too.
When comes to quarter end, everyone would be busy to do account closing, this closing and that closing. On top of that, it’s also a busy period for next year budget.

I am not sure will I have the time on blogging, but I would definitely try.

I am busy until my favourite Olympic also have no time to watch. But I gonna make sure I have the time for Closing Ceremony which is schedule at 8pm on 24 August, Sunday.

Oh ya, Lee Chong Wei had lost the game, however, Lin Dan is too perfect and too fierce for that match. However, we should be looking up on Chong Wei for his ‘positive’ attitude.

2008 Beijing Olympic

I have just finished watching Men’s Relay Medley 400m, and I could a see a mother’s eyes whom is so proud of her son and that’s Michael Phelps.

I always like to watch the way he swims. Not only the speed but the styles of the strokes, regardless free style, frog style, or butterfly stroke.

And Michael Phelps is well recognized as the Top Olympian for year 2008 Beijing Olympic. With his performance, one that I could realize is ‘positive parenting’. I got to know that he’s a hyperactive child and was sent for swimming classes to provide him with an outlet for his energy

First time seeing the fastest man on earth running the 100m last night, and the winner broke the world records. And this is Usain Bolt from Jamaica. The winning style was magnificent and it has no words to describe.

And, this evening at 6.30pm (Malaysia time), we’ll be watching another hero competing a gold medal in Badminton. Tonight badminton match will be another exciting match not to miss; cuz is our world ranking number 2, Lee Chong Wei vs world ranking number 1, Lin Dan.

Who do you support then?

Sleepless nights

I have been having sleepless nights lately. Well, you can call it a sleeping disorder or insomnia. Whenever people heard that, first question was are you thinking a lot lately. Just don’t think so much, face the fact and accept it.

Well, I do not deny the fact that I have been thinking a lot. I even could think far like few years later, what will happen if I do this or that.

Anyway, I was chatting with a colleague yesterday. We both were sharing the same thought. Many times, when friends or others encourage you to speak out; you will tend to tell the whole story to the listener. And if the listener has never been into the situation where you’re before; you will tend to elaborate more.

And many times, they will advise you if you can’t change the fact, just face it or accept. But not many even know when you accept the fact, it’s a painful experience and it’s always have a price to pay.

Within 6 months, I have 2 painful experiences. Though I went back to work, I talked to people, I smiled, I laughed. But how many that has such experience will understand the inner self is in pain? I believe not many… for those that have positive character, yes, they may be able to accept. But for a pessimistic person may not be able to accept it but to think it over again and again.

I don’t know what to say down here, but I am not only thinking about the incidents that I went through but also the family disputes and conflicts that had been bothering me.

I am grateful that I have my other half whom truly understand what’s and where the problem is. But, there is something in your heart and mind that bothering you so much so that it ought to spill out. And you know time is not right and the opportunity is not at your side.

So, ended up… these are the sleepless nights!

Penang Bridge

Effective today, heavy vehicles are not allowed to drive across the bridge from 6am to 9am and from 5pm to 7pm.

When we cross the bridge at 7am, it was a smooth drive, cuz, you don’t see heavy vehicles that slow down the traffic on the bridge. And on top of that, on the way to the Penang Bridge, we actually saw lots of people holding their walkie talkie for communication.

Honestly am not sure was those people trying to monitor any heavy vehicle entering the bridge or not.

However, while we were enjoying the smooth drive, on the other side of the bridge, we saw a lorry crossing over. So, I wonder, did they also have employees like that monitoring on the other side?

Anyway, Friday is always a nightmare for lots of people that using the bridge. So, we shall see how is the traffic getting on this evening??

And, am sure lots of people has forgotten about the fuel hike and I noticed many cars on the road and on the bridge nowadays. I wonder, do they actually feel that pain?? Well, I do! Do you?

Daughter-in-law

I actually received this piece of article from email speculation. However, when I surf thru the net, I realized this has been published or even posted in many Chinese blogs.

I am into this situation where I truly agree what this article says about a daughter-in-law.

媳婦永遠都是別人家的小孩，男女都要看..很讚！
講的真好呀……


我是楊 小姐，與吳先生結婚後，
他還是叫吳先生，可是我就變成了吳 太太。

稱謂上的轉換倒無所謂，令我難受的是實質的生活際遇：
吳家的大小事就是我的事，而我娘家的事可就不關他的事。

婆婆與媽媽都有慢性病，常常身子不舒適，
結婚三年以來，即使我有事忙，
或是自己也生病時，都得忍著不適帶婆婆就醫，
期間看了中西醫無數次，而她的態度總是像皇太后般頤指氣使。

反觀幾天前，跟老公提及媽媽跌傷了腿，之後他壓根忘了這件事，
連續幾天我自己帶媽媽就醫，電話追蹤復元狀況。

再提及此事時，老公只說了句：
「噢，那妳替我問候她！」更好笑的是，我媽媽因此就稱讚女婿有心。

我們星期日的午餐例行是與婆家共進，而晚餐則與娘家共聚。

然而，到婆家吃午飯，
我與印傭須提早一個小時抵達，好幫忙婆婆做飯，
每次一進門，婆婆總是逕將手中的蔬菜遞給我揀，
看不出有一點孩子們回家團聚的喜悅，
只在意我是不是晚了幾分鐘去，是不是少幫她炒了一道菜。

反觀在娘家的晚餐實況：
通常媽媽要我們六點鐘到，當我們在六點時進家門，
飯菜早已香氣四溢，媽媽總是熱情地招呼丈夫；
菜色、水果及零食皆針對每個人的喜好而預備。

飯後我們幫忙收拾，媽媽還趕我們去看電視，
頻說：「難得回來，放著就好。」
每次看見婆婆對我及媽媽對待女婿之間如此大的差異，
而老公卻覺得那是理所當然時，我就懷疑女人為什麼要結婚？

如果媳婦也能以一句「替我問候你媽媽！」來表達對婆婆的孝心，
也許我們的日子就會好過多了，老公，可以嗎？

結論就是對婆婆而言, 媳婦永遠都是別人家的小孩啦！

sauce: email

Contradiction

Know what, I become very sensitive ever since 2 incidents happened to me.

Sensitive in a way what people told me and what people perceive in me. And, I may be contradicting myself too.

Some has told me this is fated, nothing much we could do. If this is really fated, but why allow me to conceive the 2nd time and yet take it away from me.

I have many many questions to the God whom always pass on so many obstacles to our lives. But why of all the things and this happen to me?

Was it my fault for not wanting the children when I first setup a family? Or it was my fault for having it too late?

Lunar Calendar 7th Month

Now it’s already 7th month of Lunar Calendar, you will tend to hear lots of those mystery stories and as well as those thriller movies. Apart from the commercial, you will see lots of people starts burning some gold paper and silver paper for the deceased by the road side.

Lately, I read lots of hysteria cases happened in schools. Some believe it’s due to spiritual disturbs, some believe is due to day to day life pressure.

But seriously, when things happen like this, it’s so mystery, and it’s beyond explanation.

I personally seen how people had this hysteria, and it was completely a different look from their usual self. I once working late in the office and things happened at that time. Production line operators started to scream from one to another.

At that point in time, there were production supervisors and engineers were working late and some were on shift. Thus they were pulling the affected operator out from the production line. And I could see those muscular men that pulling the affected operator were having tough time. Cuz, the affected person is extremely strong and it’s not easy to calm them down.

Another experience was during the day, while we were eating out. Suddenly office called up, said that things getting worst. This is not only happened to one but to many. And they ought to close the production floor for nearly half a day.

With all these incidents, it’s not that you gotta believe or not, but, these actually does exist. Right?

Oil Price

World oil price has dropped to USD115, and even our neighbour has adjusted their oil price to the lower.

When is our turn to drop? I heard people saying and yet I don’t see anything being announced?

How long do we need to wait and spend RM2.70 oil price??
Why can’t they act fast???

She's on paper

I actually hardly read newspaper, reason is simple, what reported or published everything is either the Olympic Games (which I don’t mind, as it’s a world event), or the sodomy case. Honestly, am kind of pissed off.

But, today is something that I see in the paper!! Guess what I see….???

It’s our Penang famous 5xMom!! Guang Meng Press actually reported 5xMom made good money from blogging and also said that how she spreaded the blogging income by having a couple of blogs, and how much time she spent on blogging too.

Isn’t it happy for her?? Though I do not know her personally, but, I admire her strength and determination in life. Do buy Guang Meng, ok???

Let’s give our Penang Blogger some support!!

080808 Good News

It was so much relief after visiting my gynae this morning. I felt much better, and at ease. And I truly appreciate he arrange to see me this patient which did not have any prior appointment, but only a call yesterday. And, also appreciate his patient to explain every details to me, and even clear my doubts.

The lab result came back and he had explained to both of us the ectopic pregnancy was in my left fallopian tube and it’s about 10cm in size. He did a scan on my abdomen and also noted that the patch of blood no longer under my womb. Things look alright from the scan, and the lining is thinner and I should be expected to stop bleeding.

The sudden bleeding was shocked my family, cuz, nobody would expect a sudden bleed like that after a surgery. In fact, it has bleed discharged for nearly 6 days and it stopped and came back again. Which we find it strange and thought it could be something happen in the wound.

Thank God for all these confirmations from my gynaecologist, things are alright and absolutely fine!

An anxiety night

How to calm my anxiety over the bleeding matter?
Apart from praying it hard it’s due to driving, but nothing else. I am keeping my mind focus on blogging.

Other than that, honestly I have nothing to do but just blogging.

Watching TV nor drama will not help right now, even eyes on the screen but the mind is running wild. I believe many people will be like me.

Hubby kept telling me, not to worry cuz, this is obviously due to driving. When we drive, we’ll apply forces on the clutch for those having manual car. And, it may hurt internally thus bleeds.

Am scared! Am afraid! Am freaking out!

Am I over react over what has happened just now?

Things were happened when hubby is not able to help me to bank in my cheque, I drove to the bank this morning and to several places. When I reached home after few hours, noticed am bleeding.

It wasn’t a fresh blood, it’s dark red in colour. I did give my gynae a call about the sudden bleed. He said as long as I don’t have the fever I should be alright, however, he wants me to monitor myself for a night. If I don’t feel quite alright, I should be seeing him tomorrow instead of wait till the scheduled appointment which is on Sunday.

I thought it could the driving that causes this sudden bleed. But now though it stops but it will bleed again with a patch of dark red blood.

I told hubby about it, he also advise me to see my gynae tomorrow morning, also monitor it for a night myself. Also advise me to calm down I should not be over react on it. I know I should not, but with these incidents for these couple of months, honestly, I am very very very scared and freaked out.

How do I be calmed when I have so much to face? From one miscarriage to another ectopic pregnancy, what else do I need to face more?

Am just praying hard for nothing happen, and am hoping it’s only bleed whatever left over after the operation.

I honestly can’t take it anymore…

Mood swing

I received two good news today. And both are related to pregnancy.

Early this morning, 1 SMS was received from my ex-colleague whom is also pregnancy around my time; she had a twin baby girl. Both mother and babies are well and healthy. Honestly I don’t know what other word to describe that feeling when I received that piece of message.

Another message is my younger sister-in-law is expecting a daughter, and will be due by end of this year. Isn’t this a good news too??

August would be a mood swing month to me. Am trying damn hard for not thinking about it, cuz, my 1st baby is due sometime Merdeka day. And it maybe a Merdeka baby too.

And thought of having the 2nd one, unfortunately God decided to give me some hard time to face. The 2nd one is an ectopic pregnancy.

I have never know this could happen to me. But what can I do right now? Nothing but to wait for God to give me the strength to live on with my own life.

Especially right now when you know your husband is extremely busy at work, and nothing much you could ask from him. And you wouldn’t want to bother him much too, as he does need 100% of concentration on his projects. I guess none of the wives would want the husbands fail, isn’t it?

So, left me without anything but my ownself?!

I know am a bit sensitive today!! Or perhaps this whole month too.

The unpredictable weather

I think lots of people falls sick with such freak weather. It’s freaky hot and you will smell smoke if you step out from the house. And such weather if you do not drink lots of water, I can tell you will get headache.

In fact, am having one right now even drink so much of water.

Just before I could post this, I hear lightening sound and the sky become gloomy. This is gonna make lots of clinics rich. I mean not to be bad or what, but with such sudden change weather, how many could actually take it even if you’re one of the healthiest person on health. Right?

Well, word of advice. Drink lots of water and avoid going out if unnecessary. The haze isn’t getting better after all these years… and I wonder was it because they burn by intention or unintentionally.

Thank you!!

After one week of the emergency operation, I actually feeling stronger that the last incident. Perhaps it’s only a few weeks attachment, no particular sentimental attached. Or could it be the mother has given up hope on conceiving babies?

I know my family members are very supportive, they even come over to cook me lunch. A simple lunch, a simple chat and gathering just to make me fill better.

I honestly truly appreciate that. Apart from them, I actually received an email from Little Inbox, whom I know from the blog’s world. She wants me to be strong, and also do write to her if I need someone to talk to. I was so touched when I read her email.

I guess no word could describe a friendship’s thought and care.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank those that had left me a comment on My Faith –

Babe_KL
Little Inbox
Liang Mui
Lillian
Wai Wai