Sleepless nights

I have been having sleepless nights lately. Well, you can call it a sleeping disorder or insomnia. Whenever people heard that, first question was are you thinking a lot lately. Just don’t think so much, face the fact and accept it.

Well, I do not deny the fact that I have been thinking a lot. I even could think far like few years later, what will happen if I do this or that.

Anyway, I was chatting with a colleague yesterday. We both were sharing the same thought. Many times, when friends or others encourage you to speak out; you will tend to tell the whole story to the listener. And if the listener has never been into the situation where you’re before; you will tend to elaborate more.

And many times, they will advise you if you can’t change the fact, just face it or accept. But not many even know when you accept the fact, it’s a painful experience and it’s always have a price to pay.

Within 6 months, I have 2 painful experiences. Though I went back to work, I talked to people, I smiled, I laughed. But how many that has such experience will understand the inner self is in pain? I believe not many… for those that have positive character, yes, they may be able to accept. But for a pessimistic person may not be able to accept it but to think it over again and again.

I don’t know what to say down here, but I am not only thinking about the incidents that I went through but also the family disputes and conflicts that had been bothering me.

I am grateful that I have my other half whom truly understand what’s and where the problem is. But, there is something in your heart and mind that bothering you so much so that it ought to spill out. And you know time is not right and the opportunity is not at your side.

So, ended up… these are the sleepless nights!