Day Dream

Lately apart from surfing food, blog hoping, I guess I am into interior deco… what I don’t look forward for things like paying huge installment, or clearing debts. How I wish I could strike a lottery wining a free house of my own.

I know I am too early to dream about it, cuz, it’s only 12noon right now.

Well, let’s put this straight, apart from the kitchen, I wasn’t looking forward for anything… perhaps, kitchen is some where I belong. A place where I could explore how to grill a bird, a fish, or anything… a place where I can experiment in making some desserts, etc.

I love to have an island in my kitchen… probably I’ve seen too much of movies or drama, or even Asian Food Channel from Astro that most of the kitchen will have an island to prepare their food.

Apart from the kitchen, island… cook book is something that I wish to compile right now, where I could build up my little library. Well, say it I got the inspiration from my pal – Little Inbox. When I see her preparing her food and photo her food that honestly inspires me a lot.

Hmmmm… am day dreaming, don’t I?

Search

Gee… I have not been writing… don’t I?

The same old excuse is I’ve been busy. Well, part of it. Second reason is because I don’t know what to write, mostly sad news, anger, upset, devastating news… nothing happy. Now that I realize, I am taking this as a dumping ground for me to dump my anger, my frustrations down here.

I’ve not been happy, ya… it’s about work.
And I’ve been facing lots of obstacles in life. Things that I know I have to face eventually and I have t deal with it.

It keeps bugging me that things are not been fair to me… seriously. The work and the responsibilities that am carrying right now, which is not giving the pay back as you wish.

That’s why to certain time, I am telling myself, it’s time to make a move!!

Well, am searching!!! I am searching!!

Decision making

Lately I am not as cheerful as before, there are many things in my mind that running real wild.

Now that it’s depending on me how do I look at it, it’s either leave it or take it. And move on with it.

But it’s always easy say than done. It’s all bounce back to me for decision making. Whether it’s on monetary or others. It’s not that just making that decision… in life there are many things for us to judge, to manage and to decide. And this is the moment that I have to really think hard about it.

Michael Jackson - RIP

He finally found his rested home. RIP Mic!

I wish to turn back the clock

These days the sky is so gloomy and it rains almost everyday, does it really affects a person’s mood and thoughts?

I believe it does… it’s affecting me badly.

I have liked gloomy weather, raining days all the time, well, not that I am weird or what. It’s because such weather, you don’t have those hot and sweaty and stinky smell on you. And raining days its cooler and it like a free air-cond at home where you could bake your favourite cakes or cookies in the kitchen.

Then why it changed from good to bad? There are many things affecting me, whether at work or on family and personal. It didn’t just come and go, but it’s rather dragging and it’s slowly killing your mind, your strength.

I know if I do not take things lightly and manage it well, I will eventually end up in visiting psychiatrist. The matter of fact, I know I have lots of family issues neither disturbing me which I know I can’t let it out from my chest, nor letting it go.

Cuz, the fact is, I am belonging to this family which I can’t leave.

If I have the choice, I wish I do not born to suffer this pain, I wish I can turn back the clock, I wish I can leave everything behind without worrying.

Unreleased Video Clip

The more we should understand why he has to do a plastic surgery... right?

MJ Tribute Videos

Something that I didn't wanna miss...



Jackson video captures career highs

A brother's love

Michael Jackson's Memorial Service

Michael Jackson's Memorial Service

Shock the World

What's the shocking news for this morning?? Both stars fallen on the same day... MJ is everybody well known star, but not many know who Farah Fawcett is, especially the younger generation.

When I turn on my pc this morning, my eyes were wide opened when I saw the headline “King of Pop died at 50”.

I just can’t believe it… cuz, this news came in too sudden to many people, and even radio is playing his songs, to pay for his tribute.

Another sad story is Farah Fawcett, I’ve seen her when I was a small kid, got to know her from her golden hair, in Charlie’s Angels. Especially her love story with Ryan O’Neal… something that not many couple could go thru.

RIP FF & MJ!

A sudden news.... DEATH

On Friday, 12 June 2009, at 5.17pm, while I was busy cleaning my room, my former classmate gave me a call, asked me do I still remember so and so. Of course, I said ya, I know him, and I remember I saw him not long ago.

Then, my classmate broke the news to me, saying that he committed suicide and jumped down from an apartment an hour ago yesterday.

I was shocked, goose bumps all over my arms. I just don’t believe it as I remembered I just met my other classmate not long ago. And never believe this could happen to him.

Worst is, leaving behind 2 kids; the eldest was only 12 years old. How would the family take it? We even as classmate already hard to accept the fact that he jumped down from the apartment.

Until today, at this moment, we do not know what the reason behind for this suicidal case was. Whether as what the news said they are now investigating as sudden death or murder, but I wish the truth will appear and return the family the justice no matter what the case is.

God bless!

Snatch Thief = BxxxxRD!

I curse those that snatched people’s bag die on accidents!!!

How could this thing happen? Especially happened on my mother!! Just 7.15am this morning, 2 Indians riding on their bike driving around, my mom saw that and already slow down her movement and observing how they behave.

What never expect was, they drove passed her, and turn back and open her car door and snatched her pouch! Pouch as in those hanging on the waist. What do you expect a 70 year old woman to react? Scream and grab as hard as possible, right?

Sorry and allow me to call these people BASTARDS!!

If you’re out of job, you don’t need to snatch people’s bag, BASTARDS!!

Will you object?

Many object to making English a ‘must pass’ SPM subject!!

The above title really caught my attention! Would you agree with the above?

I would 101% agree to this idea and this implementation. English is an International Language, and you could see these in International Airport, even Olympic games, SEA Games, etc. When you’re doing an international business, English is required. When you’re in café, bar, bistro, people speak English.

I was very disappointed to see there are many people out there right now does not dare to speak out, especially English. Whether is poor or broken, just have the guts to say it out. No one would laugh at you, no one would condemn you. At least you learn, and if you make mistake from there, you could pick up. Right?

I truly wish this could be the MUST PASS subject for SPM, at least, it gives the nation a better future!

Losing Focus

Lately many companies are under going some kind of restructuring, and that exercise has actually given lots of employees a very negative effective. Employees though stand by the company fight for the bad economy, some how, will the company appreciate what has the employees done for all these years?

I know some companies employees are basically dragging their feet to work, their spirit is like floating somewhere, they just can’t focus on their job.

If this market continues like this… I doubt the people will be able to boost up to the level that they used to be.

What I could just say is stay focus, stay positive… but how long can you stay focus and positive? No one will have such strength to stay on like this.

Do you?

Generation Gap

Generation gap it’s something that nobody would be able to solve.

A couple had bought a new house and plan to renovate before moving in, and yet, what is the difficult part is, the lady owner is currently preggy and will be due in July.

Chinese traditionally believes while you’re conceiving the couple is advisable not to hack, or even spring cleaning. Cuz, they believe some kind of God is protecting the couple and the baby.

But how would many will understand the experience that other people had paid for it? Don’t think nobody would understand unless you’ve been thru.

Each of everything that leads me to ponder of a gap between a mother and a daughter… it could turn out to be harmony on the surface, and it could turn out to be sour in the future.

A word of advice would be … listen, and learn to believe. Probably what the elderly had been thru is a painful experience thus the advices may be find it difficult to accept. Some how there’s never have any scientific proofs to support.

It’s all based on your fate!

Kiddo

Nowadays kids are really cute…

A niece of mine is at the age of 3 now and she’s starting to ask all sort of questions, other than that, she’ll definitely start with ‘why mommy, why?’ or ‘why daddy, why?’.

So happened that yesterday my brother-in-law and my sister passed by an old folks home, and the kiddo was asking her parents what was that building. So her parents answered, that building is for old people to stay. Of course, for a 3 year old kid will not understand what is old folks home, thus, an old people building would be more appropriate.

So, guess what the kiddo said?

“For old people…. For daddy mommy?”

The parents straight away laughed out loud and come to think of it, they both fainted when she said that.

Anyway, today is Friday… though sadness had slightly faded off, I know I have to bury it no matter how… life still go on.

Happy weekend everyone!

Lost

When people tell you treasure every moment with your best pal or your love ones, please do so.

Today whole day I wasn’t in the mood to work… things happened too abruptly, and too shock that nobody could have the mind to get ready what to do next.

And the person that left me is somebody that I am very close to, whether at work, on work or personal. When you’re feeling down at work, you will have somebody to talk to… and she’s the somebody to me.

Am I too emotional over things that had happened? Probably, I don’t know, but I know I am a sentimental person which treasures every sentimental values.

At this hour, at this time,… my mind basically is blank. Though I know life must go on… but can I “grief” for it for the time being?

May 13th

May 13th… another year of May 13th.

I am so exhausted to share out anything, cuz what happened yesterday didn’t leave me where to breath. And I have to tell myself to stay focus, in terms of work and personal.

Whatever it is, what had happened yesterday is consider history, and what had happened on May 13th is also another history.

After one left last year sometime in April and one left yesterday had made me feel so lonely, not to mention the one had left on May 13th.

I know everyone will comment, life still carry on, I gotta look everything aheads of me.

Ya, I do… but don’t have a chance to voice out something?

A sad day...

Today mark an anniversary for the Sichuan Earthquake. It’s sad, and shaken when it happened last year.

Same goes to me today, something shaken me deeply. This is not the 1st time but 2nd time instead.

A day that falls on my friend’s birthday… She received not a very pleasant news from the organization. I know certain people are looking at it, cuz, there’s no way for certain people to save up that money.

However, whoever left behind will feel the sadness, something is amiss. Am sad, am really really sad!

What an Idol?

When I read the news about Andy Lau's long time girl friend Carol Chu moved out from the bungalow after the wedding plans called off.

I really wanted to hats of this Mr. Lau whom I find him a very irresponsible man in the century. Don't you think so?? A woman has been with you for a century long and has been quietly supporting him without standing in the lime light; yet, he doesn't care much or even give her a title of Mrs. so and so.

Then question lie here, what kind of man is this?
And, why would the fans blindly admiring him and so on??

Even Alan Tham also admitted that he has two wives, and even Jackie Chan is admitting Lim Fong Chiau is his legally married wife.

If a fan could crazily follow their idol like that and pressuring the idol for not getting married; think those fans can be neglected without giving a reason. Come on, that's people personal's life, isn't it?
Isn't it silly to call off the wedding due to media frenzies? Even so, so what?? Just sue them for infringe of privacy then.

I always believe there's always a way of getting rid of these media... if Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes could do it in Italy, then who is this Andy Lau??

Traumatic Incident

When we read papers on child abuse, kidnap, car ride terror... we could never feel how terrify it is, unless you personally feels it. But this morning I read something that a relative sent me. It makes me shivering horrified, and could feel the panic that the family encounters.

Until today, the person that encounters the incident is still traumatized and it takes long to cure.

Times are bad; people... keep an eye on your love ones. Stay high alert on many things.

Neglecting

Little Inbox dropped me a line was saying “No new post from you lately. I miss to have some of your thoughts and updates as well.”

Actually, I have been busy on many things… busy on learning my hubby’s new toy, the Nikon D90, busy on collecting myself up from certain things, and have been busy on work…

I’ve been really down lately, not because of anything but work…

There are certain times, I just can’t get things right. And that frustrates me a lot. If without the new toy, I’ll probably write a lot and letting it out from my chest. Even so, I did… it didn’t help much.

What was the implication? Well, causes sleeping disorder for me. Sigh… as such… a friend of mine had invited me to play something called Hexic. Though that could kill sometime, and could train your brain to be more strategic to score some points.

I know I will neglect something … but I know I will have to pick it up fast. I know I know…

Jane Austen's Book Club

Now that after iron clothes, wash bathroom, toilets, mop floor all the house chores, basically I spent my Sunday afternoon by watching movies.

Last week I watched a lot of movies, and in fact yesterday hubby was in the mood to watch a movie in a theater, thus we were watching Jackie Chan’s new movie – Shinjuku Incidents. That’s what I referred violent movie.

Today, watched a year 2007 drama romance movie, it’s about 5 women and a man to form a book club that reads Jane Austen’s novel and also each of those novels is reflects in their personal life, like marriage and relationship. If you have no idea who is Jane Austen, am sure if you’re into English literature, you’ll know Pride & Prejudice, Emma, Persuasion, etc.

Oops, the movie name is The Jane Austen Book Club. For a start is kinda lost and slow, but if you carry on… it doesn’t that bad at all.

Each of Jane Austen’s novel reflects into each of the women’s personal life, regardless their marriage or their relationship and as well as their character.

At least it’s a pleasant movie to watch compared to Shinjuku Incidents (新宿事件).

Weekend Movies

The Reader… many are looking forward to watch this, I guess it’s either they are looking forward for the sex scene or Kate Winslet’s body.

I like this movie, minus the affair.

A woman illiterate and chose to end her life in the prison eventhough the kid had found her a job and a place to stay.

Compare this movie with Kate Winslet’s other movie – Revolutionary Road. I still prefer The Reader.

I know there are many such people or couple in the world, but yet, she doesn’t has to chose to abort the child and pursue her dream. Am referring to the Revolutionary Road movie.

Anyway, … my weekend do nothing but to watch movies….

Earth Hour

Did you all support the 60minutes Earth Hour??

Well, I did. Switch off the lights, the aircond and work in the dark. hahahaa....
Yes, I'd just said it... I was working in the dark... without lights on.
And why work over the weekend???

Well, deadline approaching.... and am running out of time.... nobody cares whether you need to have good weekend or what... so, here you are... work work work work.... !!!!

One year already....

Friday… last year Friday, March 21…. A sad day for me and my husband.
Today, the same Friday, but a few more hours to 21st of March. What will it be?

We both chose to take half day off, just to spend some quiet time together. Probably you may advise me to look forward and don’t look back. But for this day, think as a 1st timer, and a sentimental person like us would chose to spend some quiet time together.

Whether is mourning for his departure or what… but this is the time and day that we are spending for the day.

Marley & Me

Marley & me – a book wrote by Mr. John Grogan, it’s now showing in theater. If you’ve read the book, you know yourself will not miss watching this in the theater. Or … If you’re a dog lover, am sure you will not miss this too.

I have a Labrador at home, and it’s exactly look like Marley in the film, in fact, it’s the same breed.

Anyway, that’s not the main reason that I watch the movie. When I had my problem in March 21, 2008, a manager of my function had lend me a book, and this is the book Marley & Me. Probably the reason for her to lend me is because there’s a part where Jenny Grogan lost her baby in 10 weeks pregnancy.

Honestly when I watched that part, I cried. I don’t expect I’ll cry, thought it has passed. I guess what had passed it has actually imprinted in it in your mind and heart?

This movie or rather this book also gives many married couple a mirror of what Mr & Mrs Grogan had gone thru when one of them gotta give up their career for the family.

Especially when the wife is experiencing the postpartum depression, the husband is more to be there to help out and also to understand her needs and frustrations.

Towards the end of the show that’s where I cried out loud. Remember I lost my dog on the New Year day, it’s exactly the same feeling that I have the family are sorrow for Marley.

If you’re free for the weekend, why not give yourself some time or your spouse some time to watch this movie.

At least you’re spending some quality time with your love one. Right?

The Somber Friday

I am supposed to have an excited feeling as I’ll be meeting my cousin brothers and sisters tomorrow night. An event that I co-organize with my cousin brother in KL, an event that need lots of patient and time that gather all of us to be at one place.

Tomorrow night there will be slide shows, photo shooting, ‘makan-makan’, etc.

I should be happy about it, but now I don’t seems to be one.

Why??

I’ve been seeing people leaving the organization. That’s not what people call it Voluntary basis, it’s all by force, and others called it Involuntary.

Those people that I had worked with before, they are nice people, and they are intelligent people, indeed smart and committed to their job. But times are bad as the reason perhaps that axes them. Some are happy as they got to have a big lump sum of amount, which means that do not need to work for another couple of years. But, some are shock to accept the news. Some are in somber mood, cuz, they have commitments to fulfill. Some are still having some positive mentality as they believe they could find another job else where.

I seriously salute these people as market is so bad right now, even US President also dare not to commit when the market will pick up. But they could happily accepting the offer and start looking for job.

I know apart from accepting the fact and face it, nothing much we could do. Basically nothing much… and leaving the left over behind, and these are the people that gotta work double hard and take over the jobs that people left.

With such lean resources, many gotta let go. Once, people thought this is one of the secure job that could secure their place in the organization. Looks like it’s not!

I am in a very sad mood and depress… what if this happen to me, how would I face it??

Slumdog Millionaire

I dropped all my house chores last night and sit right in front of my TV, just because I want to watch the recent won Best Motion Picture – Slumdog Millionaire.

If you follow the 81 Academy Awards which aired on Monday (SEA Time), am sure you wouldn’t find this strange. Yes, this movie nominated for 13 awards and swept 8 Oscar for the night.

My sis told me there are no good movies from the Oscar, well, I totally disagree with her statement. Do you find the Titanic bored, do you find Silent of the Lamb screwed up, do you find The Pianist violent? All of these are the Best Motive Picture that won for the past year.

Honestly the Slumdog Millionaire had gave me an eye-opening for what’s happening in Mumbai India and from the entire movie, you could see a young boy – Jamal Malik is struggling with his living. From a pick-pocket to chai-wallah (young boy that serves tea), what had happened to his life is basically all the questions are being asked when he participates for the ‘Who Wants To Be A Millionaire’ show.

This is another part that I find why are they so ‘dirty’ in a sense that they do not believe a kid who is so truthful and sincere to the answers.

Another part of the movie is how those gangsters collect those street children to help them to beg for money and even how they ‘scoop’ the kid’s eyes with a spoon.

Oh yes, one last thing about this movie. It has all the classic of any Indian Movies. The dancing part… that’s how it ends.

Good movie to watch!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

While everybody is enjoying and celebrating the special day with their special one, I am actually down here at home writing a blog.

After I’ve posted a post on Louis Café, we have been receiving lots of messages from friends and colleagues that they are not down there and enjoying their food.

Hubby as usual, he’ll be excited over his friends and buddies respond. As if he’s the one that writing the blog, and all that, isn’t this man cute??

Anyway, am wishing every couple and my readers a Happy Valentine’s Day!!

Am I a good wife?

Actually sometimes I wonder am I a good wife?

Why I asked myself?? Well, today it’s a special day that my husband that he wants to celebrate with me. But I was too busy and then tired after a long hours work.

I know many will advise you to go ahead and celebrate with your husband, but how many will understand that the lethargic wife is so tired and wanted be home early and rest. Not only rest, she may have to continue to work after her dinner and bath.

Eventhough as a wife you voice out to your husband, the husband may think that you ain’t supportive. Right??

So, it ain’t easy to be an understand wife, a supportive wife at times.

The so-called news

Not sure anyone read the breaking news today?

I only have 1 question in mind… why can’t they put the global economy crisis as priority first instead of making all these non-sense??

Aren’t they notice the country has more problems to solve, have employment rate increment to resolve than changing Government.

Why can’t they think like a gentleman with joint forces and get thru this hurdles that the entire world is facing right now??

Seriously, I am so sick of reading the news!! If you know what news that am referring!!

Is this the same??

Can somebody tell me is this the same character or they are difference?

纪 and 紀

Responsibilities

I actually have a friend whom is running a YB’s service centre. And because of his job duties, I always highlighted to him what’s our concern and how to improve Penang in certain ways.

And the funniest thing of the day is, they have received a letter from an appointed Government body and stated that what we had highlighted is unacceptable. And the story goes like this…

For those that drove passed Villa Emas, there’s a bumpy highway that leads to Penang Free Trade Zone. Any cars that pass by that will have to slow down as the road is sinking. Thus, many had actually highlighted to the right body, and the latter informed that this is belongs to another body who is the Federal’s management. Thus, the process is to write to them and informed them about the road condition.

Today we received an official letter from them and saying that the road is on perfect condition, need not to take further action, if complaint persists, please advise to seek the road developer to fix the problem.

Isn’t this is a joke??

People are pushing the responsibilities away… people mentality here are not the same as westerners or even our neighbour. They will just push it away and said it out loud that this ain’t belong to them. If each of everyone has such mentality, I shall see how would this grow.

CNY Hot Weather

The weather is so hot that you don’t even want to move during this period!!

Do you agree with me??

Today’s weather is like a killer waves. It’s hot, and it’s like burning our skin. I could feel my head is heavy and not able to move.

That’s why at this time, best is to hide yourself in the aircond room. The best place is our office. [LOL]

In fact, I got to know from a relative in Ipoh that Ipoh was having heavy down pour yesterday, yet Penang is like in a hot oven!!

That’s the reason why there are many people fell sick for this festive season. And I am one of them too… I was having bad cough since a week before new year till now.

新年快樂 • 恭賀新禧

在新的一年裡誠心的祝福我的朋友及讀者,

恭祝：
新年快樂！事業高升！身体健康！萬事如意！牛年行大運!

再祝
一帆風順，
二龍騰飛，
三羊開泰，
四季平安，
五福臨門，
六六大順，
七星高照，
八方來財，
九九同心，
十全十美，
百事亨通，
千事吉祥，
萬事如意！

牛年新年不能說的吉祥話

Actually read this from the email chain circulation. And find it funny, thus would like to share ...


最近流傳………牛年新年不能說的吉祥話

裁員滾滾
遭裁禁飽
萬市如憶 　 ~股市萬點已成追憶 ,苦啊~
薪餉四成
紅屠大斬　
裁員廣盡


還有不要喝 鮮草蜜~ 先炒me

Gloomy 2009

After a long break, tomorrow will be going back to work.

Wonder will the office be quiet or like a battle ground again??

Bottom line, we gotta be grateful for the job that we have, whether it’s shit or stink, it’s good to have a job for these days.

Even Microsoft has announced they will be retrenching its staff for the 1st time. Recession is covering the entire globe for 2009.

What should we do to stay strong in this weak market??

She's gone

She’s gone.
Today in the morning.

SPCA took her to the vet, vet explained what causes all these, 1st it’s because of her weak heart and causes her lung infection. With that, blood didn’t circulate till the bottom part of her body, thus her legs are not able to stand up or move. And with that, lots of midgets in her body and biting her organs. And all that causes her in pain.

The vet gotta give her 3 injections and put her to sleep.

I really do not know what to say and what to do, apart from blogging it out so that I can let it out from my chest.

It’s pain. Real pain, though it’s a dog! But the years of attachment isn’t that easy to wipe away, no to mention about human being.

This would be my new year day… next year, I’ll remember what had happened for today. It’s like ‘Hari Ini Dalam Sejarah’.

I know this is part of life, but please allow me to cry for her for few more hours, days, …?

Do you believe incarnation? I just wish her can have a better life next …