心痛

我哭了。我是為了它而哭的。
多年來的感情總不能從此抹掉。
今天看它如此痛苦, 我的心真的好痛。
為什麼它定要受苦?

它滿腳都是血, 因為被蟲咬。難道這是前世帶來的罪?

A helpless moment

My dog is not getting better today… she’s so weak and not able to control her urinate. Her whole body is dirty and smelly yet she can’t bathe.

I really do not know what to do… we called up the vet, the vet said, nothing much he could do, as he said he gave 50/50 chance to live. Furthermore she’s so old already, her internal organ is all shrink by now.

When you see animal suffering like that, seriously it’s exactly like any human would go thru. To certain extend, you just feel so heart ache and you do not know what to do to help them.

I’ve been thru and even now, I don’t know what to do. And at times, you will just feel like giving up and let it die just like that… but when you think back, you wouldn’t do it so.

Why would the animal suffer too??

My Dog

I have 3 dogs at home, 1 Labrador, 1 injured pup that my sister-in-law recently saved, and another dog which has been with us since schooling time.

The latter one is old and nearly blind now, I guess it’s time to go.

Recently she has high fever and also pneumonia that causes her legs in pain. With all these, made her like a paralyzed dog. She had a nature call on the spot, as she can’t stand, nor sit nor walk.

It’s sad to see her like this now, and I thought during this shut down period I could actually do some spring cleaning. Looks like I can’t anymore.

I gotta look after the pup, and an old dog.

I broke down in tears when I see her couldn’t stand up anymore, and she will bark us for help. She has not have any food for days, she didn’t want to eat anything.

This morning my sis actually called SPAC for help, they came all the way from Penang and took my dog to see a vet. Vet says, with her current condition, it’s only 50/50 chances to live her life.

I’ve lost one dog in 1999, that dog was with us since 1986. Since then, I didn’t want to have any pets of my own, cuz with that, I cried almost 3 days.

I know that’s part of life puzzle, however, I know I can’t take it further.

Mama Mia!!

Blogging this from The Living Room Westin Kuala Lumpur.

Am taking this opportunity wishing all readers a Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!

By the way, if you’re planning to watch Mama Mia, please do not hesitate and go for it. I watched that last night and I was touched and moved by the ABBA songs!!

If you’re from the era, you wouldn’t want to miss this, though the ticket is expensive, but I can tell you it’s worth it.

I was enjoying myself in the musical stage that performed by the group. I have goose bum when I hear them singing each of those ABBA’s songs, ie. Knowing Me Knowing You, Chiquitita, Winner Takes It All, I Have A Dream, Honey Honey, Mama Mia, etc.

I don’t need to say more about Mama Mia, picture below tells it all.

Mama Mia

Mama Mia - Here I come!!!!!!!

I'll be watching my longing Mama Mia in Istana Budaya on 23rd December 2008!!! I'll not be able to blog for these couple of days, unless I have the free time!

However, remember to drop by again, ok??

20th Anniversary

Dec 20th 2008 - This mark a special day for those that left school in year 1988, and this is the day for all of us to return to the school to meet up with our dear friends, classmates, schoolmates and our respectful teachers and headmaster.

The event was planned a year ago and it was organized by a team of schoolmates from different streams, ie, Science, Arts and Commerce.

Before the dinner starts, there’s a cocktail party served. Many of us take this opportunity talked to our friends, friends that we studied together, friends that we have not seen for 20 years, friends that we used to gossip too. Those were the days… think none of us that attended the dinner will never forget what we had gone thro.

I have friends that never talked a single word during schooling time, but then after we became very close friends. And even some were pretty close but after school we’re like strangers.

What can I say more – TREASURE is the word!

Economy Pain!!!

Headline fuel price drop another 10¢ for the 7th time!!!

Question here is, is there anything big deal??
I don’t find it…

If am not mistaken I read something yesterday about fuel price too. Diesel will not drop further as fishermen are wealthy people. How could they say something like that?? Isn’t it this is a irresponsible statement?

I’ve been really down and moody since last Friday. Company had official announced freeze merit increment. And certain companies had implemented pay cut plant wide and worldwide. When will be our turn?

To think positively is we still have a job.

But when come to think of it, why would this thing happen?? And why management did not take preventive measurements to over come this hurdles??

I know certain companies practises tele-conference or video conference for internal meeting. It’s a one time cost that causes a pain, in a long run, the company and the employees are benefited. And I know some companies, just wouldn’t’ careless… they spend like nobody’s business. Internal meetings, they chose to fly from one destination to another. Company team building held it in Pangkor Island, Langkawi Island… but nobody cares to bother if we spend less will that help to ease company’s cash flow?

Though I know I am nobody to voice out such concern… however, this is my private corner to let it out from my chest!

A weekend pain

Just like Estee Lauder says about woman, ‘there’s no ugly woman in the world, but a lazy one.’

I truly agree with this statement, there’s no ugly person in the world, as long as you’re not lazy to upgrade yourself. Let’s not talk about how to beautify yourself but make your home more comfortable by cleaning it, wipe the dust, clear the unwanted stuff.

I know someone who has not able to understand what is call ‘hygiene’. A person who has no education but yet no common sense and always think that she’s absolutely right about the facts and the family.

Unfortunately this woman is somebody that relates to me. To say am shy about or shame about it, honestly I myself also don’t know how to differentiate it. It confuses me. Though she relates to me, am finding time to help her to clear her unwanted stuff, clean her house and helped her to wipe the dust if I see any.

Some how I am not appreciated. Reason is simple, cuz; I don’t carry the same surname as she is. I am nobody to her in her eyes and I am just another woman that her son that marries and help the family to branch out their surname.

Being a working woman, I couldn’t tolerate all these feudalism in the family. But I honestly don’t have a choice. Many times, I told myself, just leave it, after all, that’s not your house, why would you bother… or leave it, that’s not your mother, why do you care so much.

Frankly down deep in my heart, I can’t just not bother cuz, I can’t stand nor can I take it that other children keep poisoning this old lady whom they called her mother.

There are many types of children in the world. And I don’t need to elaborate more about it.

When I clear her wardrobe, I see lots of nice clothes and all of them are new and nice, especially for her age. When I checked with her, she said she doesn’t wear those anymore. Thus, I suggested let’s donate it to old folks home.

She was stunned and shouted at me that NO, all her clothes cannot give anyone. All these clothes are going to give it to her sister. If she doesn’t wear and why took her so long to pass it down to her sister then??

Hubby and I were there to help her to hang up a clothes hanger, so that she can hang her clothes, and make her place nice and tidy. What we have done were not appreciated, furthermore she just said leave it. Nobody will come into our room, but her son told her off, this is very untidy, am helping you to tidy up. The mother just said never mind that’s ok, I feel comfortable with that. Honestly, we both were speechless. Clothes every where lying down on the floor and not tidy. I guess nobody can take it unless you’re nobody’s mother or what, you’re an orphan… but whatever it is, it’s all based on yourself whether you want to make it happen to or not.

But not lying everything down there and do nothing.

The Injured Pup

Remember the injured pup that my sister-in-law that had saved?

Look at it now?? Does it looks much better?

But very very very very very and extremely naughty!!!

Bukit Antarabangsa Tragedy

Do they learn what had happened in 1993?? Highland Tower collapsed and many were died on this collapsed, children, adults, old people.

What have the developers had done for all these years?? With this accident, don’t they still choose not to believe this is our earth calling for help?

My heart shrunk when I saw the piece of news where the husband uses his bare hands to dig the earth to find his wife. The wife managed to save all her children, but she was not able to get out from it, and was buried alive.

Why were developers built those houses near the hill?
Why were those hill cutting projects approved?
Why none of these people understand the greenery is important to our earth?

草莓族 The Strawberry Generation

I learn something new today… The Strawberry Group ~ 草莓族!

I took sometime to surf thru what is this 草莓族, and I found this article. And I truly agree nowadays the new generation unlike us whom can take on stress and pressure. We were bullied and pressed down when we first came out and worked. We survived thru the hard times and learned from our mistakes and become what we are right now. Though it’s not anything high fly, but at least you’re proud of yourself for what you are, right?

I have somebody here, who is young and claimed that he’s been into IT field but arrogant.
Well, nobody cares whether this person is arrogant or what, as long as he/she can work. Right?

Apparently he/she made couple of mistakes and we have highlighted to the person, and guess what treatment that we’ve got after highlighted? It was a blast from the person that made the mistake.

This person of our department has been here with us for a year, and the position that this person hold is an admin support. Sometimes being an admin support there are no fix and standard to follow, but many things are just merely based on experience, knowledge and even common sense.

Well, if a person is fresh and green, isn’t a person should learn from the experienced one? I understand the department secretary has been telling the admin support what to do and what not to do, and this admin support some how just chose to ignore what the secretary had instructed him/her to do. Even the mistakes surface up, he/she just chose to act as naïve and ignorant. Well, not only that, the admin support even put the blamed on the secretary.

When the mistake surfaces up, what the admin did was denying everything and confirmed that’s not a mistake but to blame others. Some how, the mistake was then clarified by the affected party. When the admin realize this cannot be denied anymore, the admin was asked to refer to the secretary for further solving the mistake.

Well, guess what happen? The admin just threw the tantrum to the secretary and not even begging for help to solve the problem.

Well, whoever read this, will just ask, isn’t this admin having attitude problem??

I can tell you that, yes, the admin is having real bad attitude problem. And not to forget the admin is actually a contract staff, and the secretary has been eating all these unhappiness up herself without sharing with anyone till these things surface up to our attention.

Anyway, … more to share.

30 years

Yesterday evening I had a great chat with my childhood friend, a friend that I’ve know for 30 years. The friendship is even longer than I know my husband.

We were both in the same class when we’re in primary, then her entire family moved out from Penang state, and we didn’t keep in touch since then. When comes to secondary school, we realize we were both studying the same school again. Unfortunately we both were not from the same stream which means she’s from Science Stream and I was from Arts.

During the 5 years secondary time, we both though were not as close as before, but we still meet up once in awhile and share load our ‘stress’ when comes to exams.

After graduate, we both were not keeping in contact till 8 or 9 years ago. And now, we both realize that our friendship had grown for 30 years already.

Isn’t it time flies? Isn’t it we should treasure the friendship that we had built since we were small?? How many have 30 years friendship without change?

We exchange thoughts, ideas, and giving each other advices when the others needed. Stand by each other when the other needs help. You just can’t find a friend like this anymore.

Honestly am grateful with that 30 years friendship.

Market panic

With the current market situation, how many will go ahead with their holiday plan?

I guess everybody is in a very depressing mood. Yesterday Dow Jones has trembling down and it affects Asian market. What right now is cash is the only thing that could survive.

Thus, you would have to take a look at your safety net, is it strong enough to sustain your weight. Otherwise, it will just burst out before you could do anything to save it.

Many countries had announced that they are getting into recessions and we see giants like Citigroup is retrenching 50k staff, crude oil is sliding down to USD53 right now. People are now starting to worry for deflation instead of inflation. And all these could lead to deep recession, and it will probably take a few years to re-build it back.

Things that we heard are getting real scary… and though we know it’s beyond our control cuz, these are all business decisions. Some companies are eliminating staffs that are under performing, or even excess headcounts. Some are planning for year end shut down; some even had alerted many of their employees that foresee next year will not have increment. Thus far, have yet to hear anything like pay cut.

What would be our alternatives right now?? How do we brace this financial storm?

Penang Bridge Blog exceeded access

Guess what?? We can’t view Penang Bridge traffic if the page view limit for this site has been exceeded.

I wonder why kind of measurement is this??

Sigh… sigh… sigh… sigh… sigh…

An injured puppy

Would you save a puppy’s life if you see it has injured its leg and has been hunger for some time?

I think many would if they see a puppy was like dying and full of dirt and ants around its body.

This is the puppy was saved by my sister-in-law yesterday when she was about to leave for her appointment. She heard a puppy’s crying, but she doesn’t know where is it. When she found out, the puppy was actually below the car which she had park outside the house.

Without second thought she quickly grab the puppy into her arms and sent the injured pup to the vet. Then she got to know the right leg is fractured and the vet said when its get older, it will heal automatically, however we still find that we should seek a second opinion.

Isn’t this cute??

Opening Gurney Plaza New Wing

Since it’s a long day work today, so we both decided to go for a walk right after our dinner. And, I heard it’s Gurney Plaza’s new wing opening, so we both just thought of walking around and see what are the new shops open.

First shop that I had eyed on it was Eclipse, local designer Sonny San’s brand name. A shop where you can find nice shoes, nice hand bags and petite size dresses, blouses, and so on.

Followed by Braun Buffel, a reknown leather bags shop. And many other more like MNG, Hush Puppies, Lacy Lace, etc.

Many shopping malls have put up the Christmas decoration, this is my first mall that had visited so far. Of course comparing this to KL shopping mall like 1 Utama or Mid Valley, Penang shopping mall can never bid them. If the excuse was spacious, well Queensbay Mall is spacious enough, unfortunately they do not have the idea or talent to put up a nice and attractive deco like Mid Valley Mega Mall. Gurney Plaza’s Christmas deco is too ordinary and nothing to shout about.

Parkson has also done their renovation inconjuction with the new wing opening too. It's bigger in terms of brand name products, 2nd floor is a joint between the old wing and new wing. It's good to walk around with so many stuff.

Anyway, this post is just merely to share the Gurney Plaza new wing.

The joint between the old wing and the new wing at 4th floor.

New wing Christmas deco.

Shops from the new wing.

New wing path way.

They just do nothing...

Just got to know a friend’s wife’s handbag was snatched by someone in Megamall Prai area. If you know where is it, it’s a mega mall that was built by a famous developer who doesn’t know how to maintain his properties.

Well, how I know… oh, that’s simple, as I do have family member into such industry, so, more or less I know bit here and there.

Anyway, that place honestly is creepy to me, dirty, dim, lots of those jobless people, foreigners, etc. I know there are many shop houses, even tuition centre.

The story was she was sending one of the kids to the tuition centre, and upon reaching the centre told her that due to emergency matter, they are not open today. Thus, she has to send the kids back home. On top of that she was actually wanted to bank in about RM2K in the bank which is near to the tuition centre as well.

When she walked down together with the kids, there were 2 men were eyeing on her, as it’s a good opportunity to snatch her bag especially she was with 2 kids. Those people came over and snatch it from her, and the kids and her was pulling it from the thieves.

While the incident was happening, opposite the coffee shop, there were 2 policemen having their tea. And they saw the entire incident. The victim was actually questioned the policemen why aren’t they come over and help them. Guess what they said, they said how do they know what are they doing, they thought they know each other.

Question… where are those money that we have paid to the Government like income tax, government tax, etc?? Aren’t policemen supposed to protect the civilians regardless things happened like this?? They have all rights to question what are they trying to do, and also warn them for not doing it as it lead to misunderstanding things like that.

Question… common sense, aren’t the policemen should come forward and query?? And why aren’t they doing so??

This is really disappointing!! Honestly do!! Though it doesn’t happen to me, but I could feel the pain as my mother’s bag was snatched before. Probably that RM2k is in need for other purposes… if those idiots really wanted to snatch for money, get the hell to work hard for it, isn’t it??

Unfortunately, not many people would have that thought!! Some people are just being lazy and waiting for the money to drop off from the sky!!!

A husband's value

Once I chatted with my sister-in-law thru Skype, and we were talking about how men can be a good husband and what’s their value.

Instead of talking about the men’s value, we were actually comparing the brothers’ value. You see my sister-in-law’s husband is my husband’s brother. And though brought up in the same environment, the same discipline, the same teaching, some how, my brother-in-law unlike his brother that is my husband which is that helpful in terms of house chores.

Right now my sister-in-law is expecting the 2nd child, and her stomach is pretty big, 2 more months to due too. Her husband has never ever helped her to watch their son’s buttock or bath their son. Thus, not to mention about reading bed time story to their son.

So, question here is though I don’t have any children right now, but I can see my hubby can help out in many ways. For instance right now, if am sick, he will help me to clean the house, cook for me, or even help me to iron.

Perhaps, many husbands think that the men work very hard in the outside world, thus, the wife could have done the best not to disturb them and let me have a comfort home when they are return.

But, how many understand there are many chauvinistic men out there who never think the same as the minority one?

Last night I was caught by the topic which was discussed in the 10.30pm Channel 311 (Astro Wah Lai Toi). 3 famous and well known ladies in KL, one of them is Ms Chinese Pagent (runner up only), the other one is a famous DJ, and Ms Angel Wong Chui Ling. One of them was married to a Taiwanese husband, she was saying, the local guys in Malaysia do not really that independent compared to the Taiwanese men. Of course, that’s based on her observation and her thought. She said, her husband will help out in many ways especially right now she’s pregnant. And that probably is not due to family brought up but due to the husband was under trained in reservist for the country before.

She also added that, Taiwanese men especially the older generation are equally chauvinistic too. But some how the younger generation are different.

Well, for the new women, what would you expect from your husband then? Can they be trained to assist you in house chores??

1st Black President - Barack Obama

This news is hot from the oven, only 9 to 10 minutes ago.

Barack Obama becomes the 1st black America President!

The world is changing… and I hope certain countries (which am not going to mention) will change for better too!!!

Penang Bridge traffic

2 days already…. 2 days of heavy traffic on the bridge.

Ever since fuel price drop for 15¢ and now at RM2.05, guess there’re many cars on the road, as many people could afford. And since then, 2 days on the bridge the traffic was rather heavy at early morning.

I could see many cars are only the driver themselves without ferrying any passengers, unlike those days when the fuel price was sky high, I could still see some cars ferrying 2 or 3 passengers.

If one could still have the discipline to transport their friends or colleagues, perhaps, that will contribute some benefits to the global environmental issue.

Unfortunately human being is a selfish creature, and hard to find one unselfish. Agree?

Decent income

When you got to know you have earned some decent money from advertisers, how would you feel?? Am sure you’ll be motivated and blog more, right?

What if you received an email from one of the advertiser said that they would like to pull out from your blog and with effective end of this month. And, how would you feel then? Either you’ll be upset or you’ll be working hard and blog more and hope there will be other advertiser to advertise in your blog, right?

Well, few days ago I was pretty curious to find out how much ‘decent’ income that I’ve earned and to my surprise, it wasn’t a lot, but that’s enough to make my day. But today, I received a bad news from another advertiser that they would like to terminate the advertising service in my blog. [sigh]

Looks like I got to blog more, blog frequent and explore more topics or food… otherwise, the decent income will also be ‘stagnant’, right?

Let's have a wild guess....

Can you guess where is this place??

We were here for our teambuilding few weeks ago...

The Garden MidValley

Not sure how many of you have been to this new hotel in KL? Well, this is my 1st visit. And honestly, that’s nothing to shout about, cuz, to me this is a business hotel. The only thing that is convenient is it’s next to The Garden Mall, and eating would not be a problem, last minute shopping also would not be a problem.

But, this hotel that I know so far, that has no specific car park lot. It shares with The Garden or The MidValley Megamall. If you’re park at the Premier car park, per entry is RM5, and it’s the nearest to the hotel.

The lowest category from this hotel is Deluxe Room. Currently is running a promotion rate, at RM365 nett with breakfast for single occupancy, for double occupancy is RM385 nett.

Address & Contact Number
The Gardens
Mid Valley City
Lingkaran Syed Putra
59200 Kuala Lumpur
Malaysia

Tel: +603-2268 1188
Fax: +603-2284 8998

A long weekend

A long weekend is approaching… those that celebrate Deepavali will probably take a couple of days off. Those are not will probably taking this long weekend for a good rest or maybe going for a short break.

Whoever is on the road, please be reminded to drive carefully. Whoever is living on the mainland will be crawling across the bridge, which normally Friday traffic is expected to be like that.

So, what do you plan to do then? An early spring cleaning? Or, staying at home and do nothing?

I’ll probably be taking my own sweet time, driving down south for some food hunt. Am kind of like holiday mood now… cuz, it’s been some time I have not having a good holiday.

My dream

I had a weird dream this morning. A dream that indicates I should have this on my own instead of admiring others.

The dream was ….

I found a gift in my car, and it’s nicely wrapped up with wrapping paper and ribbon. I do not know is from whom, but it’s nicely lying down on my car seat. Due to curiosity, I unwrapped it and I found this ‘toy’.

So, guess what it is??

That's my long yearning Canon EOS 450D Digital Camera.

Sauce: http://www.dpreview.com/

Is this a good dream? I guess it was, huh??? Hmmm, what does it indicates then???

Day Care Centre

It’s worst to hear somebody that you can rely on to look after your kids suddenly tell you that she doesn’t want to continue due to personal matter.

I’ve yet to be a mother, but I can understand how would be a mother feels. When a mother hears this piece of news, am sure she’ll be very upset. Cuz, it’s never been easy to find another baby sitter again, and it takes time for the baby sitter to discipline the kids and also to look after too.

Putting the kids in the day care centre is many working mother’s choice right now. It’s always pros and cons. And we know if one fall sick in the centre and that will spread among the children.

Eventually suffer is the kid and the parents that will be nursing them.

And nowadays day care centre is so commercialize, you hardly have a full focus on the a child’s development.

I’ve chatted with a friend whom sending her kids to day care centre, and this is part of life that many parents gotta go thru. Though is hard, but, what other choice can we choose, unless the mother decided to quit the job and be a full time housewife. Frankly with the current economy, how many could survive with 1 income earner? Right?

Wedding Planner

Have you ever thought of what should you do after you retired? Or, have you ever thought of what to do some part time income? Or do you have any business in mind that you would really like to invent into?

I know many of my friends wanted to try out something that they are interested. Some even be their own florist, cake maker, taylor, and even some even help other small entrepreneur in their accounts.

I guess I like planning and organizing a function, especially a wedding function! I like to see the newly wed couple with a happy smiling face and loving emotions between the couple. This is something which you can’t hide from their face.

Though the process of planning a wedding is the most headache task, especially when you needed your guests to RSVP, and yet they are like giving you last minute attendance. You’re like wanted to strengthen them to death. Not only that, I believe some couples will agree with me that the arguments between the couple will increase without realizing it. Some say why this and some say why that. Some want to have a simple one and some want to have something formal.

Some got to seek parents’ advices, on what to do…

Apart from that, some family even follow the traditional wedding rules that the couple are not supposed to meet up before the wedding reception and so on…

Thus a wedding planner is best to be there to assist. Right?

Well, I am just thinking … just have no guts to be one for it. So, what do you like to do then??

Blue or Lazy?

The long holiday is over; I believe many working people will either have the BLUEs or the LAZINESS to either get back to work or school.

Well, I don’t deny the fact that I am one of the BLUE group.

I am even so lazy to blog, to write, to think and anything.
And, I know if I do not make any first step, I’ll be probably leaving this blog empty and redundant.

Normally at this time, probably lots of people start to plan their year end holiday and some will be counting the holidays and plan when is the best day to take off.

Last year, I was spending my short break in Pangkor Laut Resort, well, what would be this year plan?? I wish to watch Mama Mia in KL, unfortunately, hubby wasn’t really keen on stage drama. Furthermore the ticket is so expensive, it’s about RM200 and above.

So, what are you? Blue? Or lazy?

Here comes an end

The 5 days long holiday is about come to an end... and tomorrow is Monday, that's what everybody hates it.

I guess before Monday arrives, everyone would just wish, Sunday could end a bit later.

Many people were on good long holiday on these 5 days; some are staying at home and relax. I bet the long queue traffic along the North South Highway will not avoided.

However... drive safely along the journey is the best advice to all drivers.

O dear... am I started to have Monday blues now??? Grrrr....

Am in pain!!!

Can somebody tell me why even with annual dental check up and cleaning, yet we can still have tooth ache?

I went for tooth extraction this morning and the dentist (which the nurse assigned me to visit) told me that it needs to have minor surgery. I was like why?

I’ve been having this phobia since small, this is worst than going for an exam. Don’t you agree? And I thought after extracting it I should not be having the pain, but the truth is it’s even more pain, and I have to take pain killer to reduce the pain.

Sitting on the chair and allowing the dentist do whatever he has to do, that moment is always long and dragging, don’t you think so??

I wish I can have painless weekend, I really don’t wanna have the pain again.

House Chores Tag

This tag was back dated in August 26 by Little Inbox, and only now am able to accomplish it.

It’s about your thoughts and feelings for household.

Rules:All you need to do is list down the household chores you hate and why you hate it. Then copy the image provide and tag as many people as you want! Add your blogs link to the domesticated divas linky love and leave a comment at Stripe and Yellow to be added to the master list and you're done.

Chores that I HATE!!!!!

1. Iron clothes. I hate this, especially you have a fussy husband who needs you to iron his jeans, his pajamas, his round neck t-shirt, blah blah blah… and mind you ironing is tiring.

2. Floor mopping. I hate floor mopping, especially you have mopped it and yet you still can feel some dirt on the floor.


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What's in my bag?

This holiday is really a pain to me, 1st is pocket pain, on 1st day of Raya, my car broke down due to flat battery, and I’ve got to burn RM200 just for 1 battery. 2nd pain would be my tooth. I have bad tooth ache on the eve of Raya, and now am still in pain and yet I can’t do much as most of the dentists are observing the holiday.

So, instead of sitting down or lying down and do nothing, might as well, finish some of the outstanding tasks which I owe lots of people.

And one of it is this… ‘What’s inside my bag?’ which tagged by Little Inbox.

First what I need to do is…

1. Find a safe quiet place free of significant other, nosey meme makers, priests, nuns, all things religious and men in general.

2. Dump the contents of my handbag in a pile.

3. Take a photo of my handbag and the contents.

4. Be brave and explain to your fellow bloggers what lurks inside the handbag.

5. Answer questions.

6. Tag others who might want to embarrass themselves.

I actually do not know how to do this, cuz, I don’t take a handbag to work, only weekends when I run my errands. Well, for Little Inbox, I’ll do it.

1. Find a safe quiet place free of significant other, nosey meme makers, priests, nuns, all things religious and men in general.
My home is always quiet like Little Inbox, anyway, I did this in my room too.

2. Dump the contents of my handbag in a pile.
Ok, dump everything out from my bag.

3. Take a photo of my handbag and the contents.
And now here it is… and I don't know why it turns into this side.

4. Be brave and explain to your fellow bloggers what lurks inside the handbag.
So, what’s inside my bag….

a. wallet
b. writing pad
c. pen
d. lipstick case
e. USB cable
f. iPod
g. pencil box
h. tissue paper
i. hair pin (in pink colour)
j. hair clip (blue colour, bought it in Maggie T)
k. lip liner + brush
l. 2GM thumb drive

5. What's the most important thing in your handbag?
Of course my wallet, everything is inside, driving license, IC, hospital cards, ATM cards, credit cards, various discount cards, etc.

What's the most embarrassing thing in your handbag?
Errr… like what??

What's the smallest thing in your handbag?Smallest??
I guess the pink colour hair pin lor.

Is there anything illegal in your handbag?
Hello, am a good citizen, so none!

6. Tag others who might want to embarrass themselves.
Oh, well, I don’t really like to embarrass anyone and neither do I have many friends down here, I’ll take it a stop down here. J However, whoever likes to continue with this game, can take it from here.

Melamine panic

I believe nobody finds the China milk powder scared any stranger, cuz, it’s been such a hoo haa lately and it’s one of the headlines.

My question is simple, why would these people that manufactured these products and added melamine in its products?
Second question, don’t they have quality control that examine every product before they pack and ship?
Third question, don’t the imported countries went thru their health department first before distribute to the seller to sell the products?

My understanding from WikiPedia site, melamine by itself is nontoxic in low doses, but when combined with cyanuric acid it can cause fatal kidney stones. And this is scary, I am not any chemical person, but nobody in the world would want this happen to our loved one.

I can never believe that the manufacturer could make this and added melamine into the food and export. Though is making good money however this is definitely an evil doing.

Now with this, who dare to import anything from China? Before that was SARS, now Melamine panic… later what would that be?

Zombie me!

Monday is always a difficult day to pass thru… I was very sleepy since morning and yet, I can’t even take a few minutes nap.

I was like walking like a zombie. And wasn’t able to concentrate. Guess what was happened, I was supposed to submit something and yet, I didn’t realize I was passing by the place and didn’t realize I was ended up in another department.

At that point in time, I was wondering why am I hear for and why am I having this documents with me.

So, dear readers… have you all ever come across such ‘blue’ day before??

Economy Pain

I supposed many have wondering what makes me so busy lately till I do not have the time to spend on blogging. Well, apart from constructing budget for next year, I was also split into half to assist my younger brother’s wedding preparation.

Well, now that things are over, the party is over and the headache budget is over too… I should be spending more time in this, right?

There are many things happened lately, don’t you all agree with me?? Lehman Brothers, a financial service firm was founded in year 1850, and recently had filed for chapter 11. Hewlett-Packard had released a statement for headcount reduction for about 7.4% which is 24,600. A giant insurance company AIG is suffered a liquidity crisis following the downgrading of its credit rating, and rumour speculating that they will be giving out 80% of the stakes to the America Government.

Yet, looking back at our country, what is happening now?? A blogger and a Member of Parliment are detaining in Internal Security Act (ISA) camp, and last night another blogger was arrested in Kota Bahru. Opposition leader is claiming that he has 31 MPs in hand, requested for a smooth transition from the existing Government.

What else more will happen?? How many ever know if anything happens, what would happen to our country?? Economy is definitely hurt and harm, with how may percent down, I guess not many dare to think of it. Cuz, end of the day, the person that suffers from this pain will be all of us.

Now that Malaysia politics is under the limelight and people are looking at it like looking at a circus show. 2 leaders for the country from no where changing their portfolio, a party who wants to quit from the coalition party before, and decided to quit for good.

As a Malaysian, honestly I have the biggest fear of a country’s economy status. Cuz, once it hurts and it’s difficult to build up within a short period, not even that, and many will suffer, many will be jobless too. Once these indices escalated, crime rate will follow as well. Bottom line, what would people think? They can only think and blame for the Government for not doing their job.

I know it’s always a price to pay for certain that people wants… but not many people will know the price of it. It could cost a life time, it could cost a bomb to many people.

Oh, to add on to this… oil price was at its peak and now it has dropped to USD97, and even gold price is dropping too… I am just hoping the people will understand the implications of ‘Economy Crisis’.

Lost touch...

I know I have not been signing in for awhile and have not been posting anything too. I’ve been really really busy on work and on personal matters.

I am just hoping I could have a long break and enjoy a holiday that I want.

Anyway, I’ve been so busy that I didn’t even have the time to read details on RPK, Theresa Kok and a Sin Chew reporter’s news. So, whoever asks me anything about it, honestly, I have absolutely no idea.

Whatever it is, what will happen, I guess will happen soon. Remember the Sept 16 that somebody had committed? Oil price has dropped to USD99 already, when will be ours gonna drop?? It’s been telling everyone soon soon soon… so how soon and when??

Anyway, let’s not talk about those news, let’s talk about something that I plan to share soon… ok?

Apologize for the racist statement

Today headline, somebody in a top position apologized on behalf of the person that made a racist statement in one of the world watching campaign.

Well, just wondering is this a family brought up or teaching that, whatever mistake that you have made and should be another person apologizing for it?? Or just chicken away?!

Chinese are merely ‘immigrants’ to the country? Well, define the word immigrant then? I guess without these immigrants, I doubt the country could become so developed, even with the brilliant former Prime Ministers for all we had.

And, I doubt we would have the word called Baba & Nyonya or even Eurasians.

[sigh] Really said to say, we have such people in our country, some more was conferred with a datukship.

Merdeka Baby

National Day!! Malaysia 51st Merdeka!

It’s also my baby’s delivering day, if no accident. Well, instead of mine, my niece gave birth to a baby girl today.

Though I have been very busy these couple of months, and I was intentionally forgetting 31st August too. However, it didn’t really help much.

My mom told me few days ago that her hair stylist gave birth to her son at 40 plus. And it was a 3rd try. She miscarriage her 1st baby, 2nd baby was like my case, an ectopic pregnancy. Hers was more dangerous than mine as hers had completely burst internally and the toxic had blend into the blood and flow into the blood stream. After a year later, she conceived again.

In fact, my mom told me if this is gifted, no matter how it will come to me. If it’s not, my mom did ask me to consider to have a god-child.

What do you all think?? Will this be a good idea than an IVF or adoption?

Finally over!

Finally the eye-catching, the world watching by-election is over!!!

With this by-election fever, there are many people watching how fair it has been carried out and how the ruling government react if the opposition wins.

Apart from that, with this by-election, there are many things happened!!
An abduction case happened on 25 August, Sungai Ara area.
Robbery case happened in Penang International Airport.

That means majority the polices and FRUs have gone to this happening place – Permatang Pauh.

I just wonder, how much money that had spent on this??
Why didn’t they spare some polices for the island and seek help from other states like Kedah or Perak which is under the opposition Government?

I know there are many people were being influence to vote who and who, and who and who will be able to help the country, blah blah blah….

These people only want who and who to win, to lead… but none of these people will understand the residents in that area is so tense, scared and worried. Cuz, the influence people have never been thru the pain 1969 case. Don’t they??

Though who and who has won by majority votes, have anyone thought of what’s the process and procedure for him to step into Parliament? Anyway, I don’t blog anything about politics nor the Government. But this by-election does piss people like me.

From a quiet town became a happening one…. Every day have lots of helicopters flying around from the dawn onwards, lots of people, lots of polices, lots of FRUs, … and lots of banners and streamers.

Feel so good!!

When I was on my way to work this morning, I could see lots of raining clouds on the sky and the weather was cooling.

I always like such weather, cuz, it doesn’t make one feel so hot and agitated. And I believe right now it’s a season change thus, it rains frequently in Penang.

But what makes feel so good this morning apart from the busy & tight schedule that I have, I love seeing beautiful & clear scenery while I was crossing the bridge. I really do not know how to describe it; it was beautiful, marvellous, amazing, spectacular, anything…

I could see all the lights along the coastal line, I could see all the building lights over the island… it was so nice. And that basically make you feel so good!!

On the other hand, it means… haze has gone away!!! Right?

Now am wondering how long will these clear skies last?? Anyway, who cares about it, though we care so much, things are all beyond our control. So, might as well enjoy what we have right now isn’t it?

Well folks, have a great and pleasant weekend!

Busy schedule

I have been really really tired and have been working pretty late too.
When comes to quarter end, everyone would be busy to do account closing, this closing and that closing. On top of that, it’s also a busy period for next year budget.

I am not sure will I have the time on blogging, but I would definitely try.

I am busy until my favourite Olympic also have no time to watch. But I gonna make sure I have the time for Closing Ceremony which is schedule at 8pm on 24 August, Sunday.

Oh ya, Lee Chong Wei had lost the game, however, Lin Dan is too perfect and too fierce for that match. However, we should be looking up on Chong Wei for his ‘positive’ attitude.

2008 Beijing Olympic

I have just finished watching Men’s Relay Medley 400m, and I could a see a mother’s eyes whom is so proud of her son and that’s Michael Phelps.

I always like to watch the way he swims. Not only the speed but the styles of the strokes, regardless free style, frog style, or butterfly stroke.

And Michael Phelps is well recognized as the Top Olympian for year 2008 Beijing Olympic. With his performance, one that I could realize is ‘positive parenting’. I got to know that he’s a hyperactive child and was sent for swimming classes to provide him with an outlet for his energy

First time seeing the fastest man on earth running the 100m last night, and the winner broke the world records. And this is Usain Bolt from Jamaica. The winning style was magnificent and it has no words to describe.

And, this evening at 6.30pm (Malaysia time), we’ll be watching another hero competing a gold medal in Badminton. Tonight badminton match will be another exciting match not to miss; cuz is our world ranking number 2, Lee Chong Wei vs world ranking number 1, Lin Dan.

Who do you support then?

Sleepless nights

I have been having sleepless nights lately. Well, you can call it a sleeping disorder or insomnia. Whenever people heard that, first question was are you thinking a lot lately. Just don’t think so much, face the fact and accept it.

Well, I do not deny the fact that I have been thinking a lot. I even could think far like few years later, what will happen if I do this or that.

Anyway, I was chatting with a colleague yesterday. We both were sharing the same thought. Many times, when friends or others encourage you to speak out; you will tend to tell the whole story to the listener. And if the listener has never been into the situation where you’re before; you will tend to elaborate more.

And many times, they will advise you if you can’t change the fact, just face it or accept. But not many even know when you accept the fact, it’s a painful experience and it’s always have a price to pay.

Within 6 months, I have 2 painful experiences. Though I went back to work, I talked to people, I smiled, I laughed. But how many that has such experience will understand the inner self is in pain? I believe not many… for those that have positive character, yes, they may be able to accept. But for a pessimistic person may not be able to accept it but to think it over again and again.

I don’t know what to say down here, but I am not only thinking about the incidents that I went through but also the family disputes and conflicts that had been bothering me.

I am grateful that I have my other half whom truly understand what’s and where the problem is. But, there is something in your heart and mind that bothering you so much so that it ought to spill out. And you know time is not right and the opportunity is not at your side.

So, ended up… these are the sleepless nights!

Penang Bridge

Effective today, heavy vehicles are not allowed to drive across the bridge from 6am to 9am and from 5pm to 7pm.

When we cross the bridge at 7am, it was a smooth drive, cuz, you don’t see heavy vehicles that slow down the traffic on the bridge. And on top of that, on the way to the Penang Bridge, we actually saw lots of people holding their walkie talkie for communication.

Honestly am not sure was those people trying to monitor any heavy vehicle entering the bridge or not.

However, while we were enjoying the smooth drive, on the other side of the bridge, we saw a lorry crossing over. So, I wonder, did they also have employees like that monitoring on the other side?

Anyway, Friday is always a nightmare for lots of people that using the bridge. So, we shall see how is the traffic getting on this evening??

And, am sure lots of people has forgotten about the fuel hike and I noticed many cars on the road and on the bridge nowadays. I wonder, do they actually feel that pain?? Well, I do! Do you?

Daughter-in-law

I actually received this piece of article from email speculation. However, when I surf thru the net, I realized this has been published or even posted in many Chinese blogs.

I am into this situation where I truly agree what this article says about a daughter-in-law.

媳婦永遠都是別人家的小孩，男女都要看..很讚！
講的真好呀……


我是楊 小姐，與吳先生結婚後，
他還是叫吳先生，可是我就變成了吳 太太。

稱謂上的轉換倒無所謂，令我難受的是實質的生活際遇：
吳家的大小事就是我的事，而我娘家的事可就不關他的事。

婆婆與媽媽都有慢性病，常常身子不舒適，
結婚三年以來，即使我有事忙，
或是自己也生病時，都得忍著不適帶婆婆就醫，
期間看了中西醫無數次，而她的態度總是像皇太后般頤指氣使。

反觀幾天前，跟老公提及媽媽跌傷了腿，之後他壓根忘了這件事，
連續幾天我自己帶媽媽就醫，電話追蹤復元狀況。

再提及此事時，老公只說了句：
「噢，那妳替我問候她！」更好笑的是，我媽媽因此就稱讚女婿有心。

我們星期日的午餐例行是與婆家共進，而晚餐則與娘家共聚。

然而，到婆家吃午飯，
我與印傭須提早一個小時抵達，好幫忙婆婆做飯，
每次一進門，婆婆總是逕將手中的蔬菜遞給我揀，
看不出有一點孩子們回家團聚的喜悅，
只在意我是不是晚了幾分鐘去，是不是少幫她炒了一道菜。

反觀在娘家的晚餐實況：
通常媽媽要我們六點鐘到，當我們在六點時進家門，
飯菜早已香氣四溢，媽媽總是熱情地招呼丈夫；
菜色、水果及零食皆針對每個人的喜好而預備。

飯後我們幫忙收拾，媽媽還趕我們去看電視，
頻說：「難得回來，放著就好。」
每次看見婆婆對我及媽媽對待女婿之間如此大的差異，
而老公卻覺得那是理所當然時，我就懷疑女人為什麼要結婚？

如果媳婦也能以一句「替我問候你媽媽！」來表達對婆婆的孝心，
也許我們的日子就會好過多了，老公，可以嗎？

結論就是對婆婆而言, 媳婦永遠都是別人家的小孩啦！

sauce: email

Contradiction

Know what, I become very sensitive ever since 2 incidents happened to me.

Sensitive in a way what people told me and what people perceive in me. And, I may be contradicting myself too.

Some has told me this is fated, nothing much we could do. If this is really fated, but why allow me to conceive the 2nd time and yet take it away from me.

I have many many questions to the God whom always pass on so many obstacles to our lives. But why of all the things and this happen to me?

Was it my fault for not wanting the children when I first setup a family? Or it was my fault for having it too late?

Lunar Calendar 7th Month

Now it’s already 7th month of Lunar Calendar, you will tend to hear lots of those mystery stories and as well as those thriller movies. Apart from the commercial, you will see lots of people starts burning some gold paper and silver paper for the deceased by the road side.

Lately, I read lots of hysteria cases happened in schools. Some believe it’s due to spiritual disturbs, some believe is due to day to day life pressure.

But seriously, when things happen like this, it’s so mystery, and it’s beyond explanation.

I personally seen how people had this hysteria, and it was completely a different look from their usual self. I once working late in the office and things happened at that time. Production line operators started to scream from one to another.

At that point in time, there were production supervisors and engineers were working late and some were on shift. Thus they were pulling the affected operator out from the production line. And I could see those muscular men that pulling the affected operator were having tough time. Cuz, the affected person is extremely strong and it’s not easy to calm them down.

Another experience was during the day, while we were eating out. Suddenly office called up, said that things getting worst. This is not only happened to one but to many. And they ought to close the production floor for nearly half a day.

With all these incidents, it’s not that you gotta believe or not, but, these actually does exist. Right?

Oil Price

World oil price has dropped to USD115, and even our neighbour has adjusted their oil price to the lower.

When is our turn to drop? I heard people saying and yet I don’t see anything being announced?

How long do we need to wait and spend RM2.70 oil price??
Why can’t they act fast???

She's on paper

I actually hardly read newspaper, reason is simple, what reported or published everything is either the Olympic Games (which I don’t mind, as it’s a world event), or the sodomy case. Honestly, am kind of pissed off.

But, today is something that I see in the paper!! Guess what I see….???

It’s our Penang famous 5xMom!! Guang Meng Press actually reported 5xMom made good money from blogging and also said that how she spreaded the blogging income by having a couple of blogs, and how much time she spent on blogging too.

Isn’t it happy for her?? Though I do not know her personally, but, I admire her strength and determination in life. Do buy Guang Meng, ok???

Let’s give our Penang Blogger some support!!

080808 Good News

It was so much relief after visiting my gynae this morning. I felt much better, and at ease. And I truly appreciate he arrange to see me this patient which did not have any prior appointment, but only a call yesterday. And, also appreciate his patient to explain every details to me, and even clear my doubts.

The lab result came back and he had explained to both of us the ectopic pregnancy was in my left fallopian tube and it’s about 10cm in size. He did a scan on my abdomen and also noted that the patch of blood no longer under my womb. Things look alright from the scan, and the lining is thinner and I should be expected to stop bleeding.

The sudden bleeding was shocked my family, cuz, nobody would expect a sudden bleed like that after a surgery. In fact, it has bleed discharged for nearly 6 days and it stopped and came back again. Which we find it strange and thought it could be something happen in the wound.

Thank God for all these confirmations from my gynaecologist, things are alright and absolutely fine!

An anxiety night

How to calm my anxiety over the bleeding matter?
Apart from praying it hard it’s due to driving, but nothing else. I am keeping my mind focus on blogging.

Other than that, honestly I have nothing to do but just blogging.

Watching TV nor drama will not help right now, even eyes on the screen but the mind is running wild. I believe many people will be like me.

Hubby kept telling me, not to worry cuz, this is obviously due to driving. When we drive, we’ll apply forces on the clutch for those having manual car. And, it may hurt internally thus bleeds.

Am scared! Am afraid! Am freaking out!

Am I over react over what has happened just now?

Things were happened when hubby is not able to help me to bank in my cheque, I drove to the bank this morning and to several places. When I reached home after few hours, noticed am bleeding.

It wasn’t a fresh blood, it’s dark red in colour. I did give my gynae a call about the sudden bleed. He said as long as I don’t have the fever I should be alright, however, he wants me to monitor myself for a night. If I don’t feel quite alright, I should be seeing him tomorrow instead of wait till the scheduled appointment which is on Sunday.

I thought it could the driving that causes this sudden bleed. But now though it stops but it will bleed again with a patch of dark red blood.

I told hubby about it, he also advise me to see my gynae tomorrow morning, also monitor it for a night myself. Also advise me to calm down I should not be over react on it. I know I should not, but with these incidents for these couple of months, honestly, I am very very very scared and freaked out.

How do I be calmed when I have so much to face? From one miscarriage to another ectopic pregnancy, what else do I need to face more?

Am just praying hard for nothing happen, and am hoping it’s only bleed whatever left over after the operation.

I honestly can’t take it anymore…

Mood swing

I received two good news today. And both are related to pregnancy.

Early this morning, 1 SMS was received from my ex-colleague whom is also pregnancy around my time; she had a twin baby girl. Both mother and babies are well and healthy. Honestly I don’t know what other word to describe that feeling when I received that piece of message.

Another message is my younger sister-in-law is expecting a daughter, and will be due by end of this year. Isn’t this a good news too??

August would be a mood swing month to me. Am trying damn hard for not thinking about it, cuz, my 1st baby is due sometime Merdeka day. And it maybe a Merdeka baby too.

And thought of having the 2nd one, unfortunately God decided to give me some hard time to face. The 2nd one is an ectopic pregnancy.

I have never know this could happen to me. But what can I do right now? Nothing but to wait for God to give me the strength to live on with my own life.

Especially right now when you know your husband is extremely busy at work, and nothing much you could ask from him. And you wouldn’t want to bother him much too, as he does need 100% of concentration on his projects. I guess none of the wives would want the husbands fail, isn’t it?

So, left me without anything but my ownself?!

I know am a bit sensitive today!! Or perhaps this whole month too.

The unpredictable weather

I think lots of people falls sick with such freak weather. It’s freaky hot and you will smell smoke if you step out from the house. And such weather if you do not drink lots of water, I can tell you will get headache.

In fact, am having one right now even drink so much of water.

Just before I could post this, I hear lightening sound and the sky become gloomy. This is gonna make lots of clinics rich. I mean not to be bad or what, but with such sudden change weather, how many could actually take it even if you’re one of the healthiest person on health. Right?

Well, word of advice. Drink lots of water and avoid going out if unnecessary. The haze isn’t getting better after all these years… and I wonder was it because they burn by intention or unintentionally.

Thank you!!

After one week of the emergency operation, I actually feeling stronger that the last incident. Perhaps it’s only a few weeks attachment, no particular sentimental attached. Or could it be the mother has given up hope on conceiving babies?

I know my family members are very supportive, they even come over to cook me lunch. A simple lunch, a simple chat and gathering just to make me fill better.

I honestly truly appreciate that. Apart from them, I actually received an email from Little Inbox, whom I know from the blog’s world. She wants me to be strong, and also do write to her if I need someone to talk to. I was so touched when I read her email.

I guess no word could describe a friendship’s thought and care.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank those that had left me a comment on My Faith –

Babe_KL
Little Inbox
Liang Mui
Lillian
Wai Wai

My Faith

Left one tube now in the body and the remaining tube is slightly crooked; one of the reasons could be due to the scar tissue from previous surgery.

My gynae did explain in details to me, if early ectopic pregnancy discovered, it can be treated with an injection of methotrexate which stops the growth of the embryo. Methothexate is kind of chemo drugs and it meant for those patient. The side effect could lead to liver problems and so on, thus my gynae discourage to use such method but an operation instead.

Now that leaving one crooked tube, I am not sure can I conceive again or not. Even my gynae dare not tell me will I be able to conceive. When we asked him the question, his answer was straight forward, he said he doesn’t know. But the chances of conceiving is definitely low.

If I do not remove the affected tube, but to salvage, the chances of recur at the same spot would be 20%. This means its high chance of getting back the ectopic pregnancy.

At that point in time, I told myself, to have or not to have I shall leave it to God! This is my faith!! Nothing much I could do anymore!!

The Same Friday

Source: MedLine Plus

It is the same Friday as March 21. It’s a different thought, different attitude and a different approach to accept the fact.

Remember I blogged about that I was moody and feeling down. It was actually affected by my hormone, as well as the skin allergies.

What causes hormone change suddenly? Because the urine tested POSITIVE and I took this test in a very ‘slow and steady’ manner that I will seek gynae’s confirmation when the time is right.

Thus, the right time was last Friday, July 25. An appointment was made few days ago and that Friday morning, I was having a good mood to see the gynae and expect to have some good news then after.

There are many times things are not as per plan or as per your wish. When my gynae had a scan on my abdomen, we couldn’t found a foetus’ heart beat and the sac as well. Immediately my gynae and both of our hearts sunken, cuz, from the scan, the womb was completely empty but we found an unidentified free fluid below the womb.

That even makes my gynae more worried. My gynae was kind enough and explained everything to me why could it be like that, one of the reasons it may be an ectopic pregnancy (子宫外孕). The problem that we had is we couldn’t see where is this ectopic pregnancy took place.

My gynae encouraged me to seek for second opinion thus we seek the senior resident gynae in the same hospital for a second check. The result is the same, confirmed no foetus found in the womb, but confirmed pregnant.

With 2 gynae’s advice, this is a life threatening case, and I ought to go for an emergency operation right away. Hubby and I were completely lost and really have no idea what to do next. Thus we called our doctor friend for 3rd advice and true enough our friend advised us to go thru the operation right away, cuz, and the fallopian tube can only sustain the foetus for only 12 weeks, once it burst, the mother will face life threaten, and eventually the mother will die of toxic that burst from the tube.

With no second thought, I signed the agreement for going for the operation, and I have full supports from my beloved husband. My gynae explained to both of us, there will be a risk of doing this operation, he also checked with us which type of operation would I op for, chose from laparoscopy or open operation. I chose the laparoscopy, which is minimum risk.

I was pushed to the Operating Theatre with my husband accompanied, and down there, I see lots of nurses and Medical Officer, Anaesthesia doctor too. The senior resident gynae saw me and came forward to comfort me with his sweet thought. Asked me and my husband not to worry, he said it has to be done as this is very dangerous.

At that point in time, I was having the panic attacked and yet they did not give me any tranquilizer to calm me down before push me to the OT. They tied both of my hands; it was like what we watch in the movies, I was stick with lots of those round stickers to check on my heart beat, my blood pressure and so on. The Anaesthesia doctor gave me some smelly gas to smell and also a jap that put me to sleep. I was reluctant to smell those gases as it was really really smelly. I was hoping they could give me an injection instead of the gas. But the doctor told me why he has to give me both, as I had my breakfast at 8.30am and we never expect this is an emergency case.

I was so scared, and the doctor told me I will have a feeling like a shrunk of my lungs and within seconds, I will fall to sleep. True enough I was like that, by the time I got up I was at the day care monitor room which monitored by the nurses and Medical Officer.

I could feel my stomach bloated up with full of gas, and was completely nausea and giddy. Then I asked one of the nurse, when was I pushed out from the operation, they told me I was in at 1 something and was out by 2 plus. It was an hour plus operation.

When they push me up to my ward at 6pm, my husband was so worried and waited for me at the waiting hall. After the op, I was shivering cold and the nurses gotta give me 2 blankets to cover me up.

At about 8 something at night, my gynae came over to review me, and he said the operation was very successful and it wasn’t to his surprise, it was an ectopic pregnancy and it’s about to abrupt, and the unidentified fluid confirmed is blood, and it was internal bleeding.

He wanted me to take a good rest and not to consume any food for that moment but only plain water. Cuz, I was still under monitoring stage, cuz, he worried I may be vomit if I have something.

I didn’t have anything at all for the night and was sleeping well, cuz, he gave me a jap where it’s a pain relief as well as put me to sleep.

And that’s an end for the day chapter.

I am sick!!!

Oh gosh!!! I am sick!!!

Sore throat, bad flu!!! I wish I can go home now, but, I can’t as I need to finish lots of things.

People heard me sneezing; tissue papers are all on my working desk. Oh boy… am weak am weak…. I need a pillow and bed… to have a good sleeps!

Work Capability

When you have a subordinate that do not have the capability to look at the big picture of a task or their own job, honestly, the superior is rather frustrated.

When a person has a promotion from their previous job, and then after will definitely sure added new responsibility. As the scope of job has wider and increased, thus, the ability of doing their job will be different too.

But, I came across somebody could not do the job but yet could highlight to the superior for loading so many jobs to the person. Some people may think the superior did not consider the staff’s availability but just add on jobs, however, nobody can see what would the superior think of the subordinate’s efficiency, right?

A very simple example, the manager ask the subordinate, please summarize the product transfer and send the summary to the manager by when and when. The subordinate do not know how to summarize but to give all the details to the manager.

Well, will the manager have the time to read and scan thru every single detail?? Am sure the manager will not have the time, cuz, the manager is equally have other important task to handle and also have other day to day job to do too… But, the subordinate could tell the manager that she doesn’t know how to summarize, but give her manager all the details and let her own manager summarize it.

Another occasion was the subordinate told the manager one of her staff was overloaded, keep nagging her own superior. But yet, no solution for that neither does she propose anything to the manager. Well, ended up both ends were suffering from heavy work load.

At times, I wonder was it the new generation that doesn’t have a sense of urgency at work, or the sense of responsibility, … or any others. But honestly, I do too come across lots of such morons at work.

Friendship

These days I actually kind of lazy to blog, regardless anything. Eventhough with anything in mind, I just have no strength to turn on my laptop and blog about it.

On top of it, today isn’t any good day for me, cuz, I have many things to do, to follow up, and to meet the deadline too. It’s just too hectic which I realized lately. Or it’s basically sick and tired of working life?

Well, I don’t know.

After read Little Inbox’s post, and a reply from her. I do realize with these blogs’ world, we got to know friends whom we have never met before, or maybe will not be meeting too.

We give each other encouragement, advices. Now that we have Liang Mui whom we know from the blog world, also giving us advices, helping hand and so on. Isn’t this is a wonderful channel to meet new friends?

A good nap

Who cares about Anwar’s news?
Who cares about RPK’s new?
Who cares about what PM says?

Most important is to have a good afternoon nap today.
Don’t you agree with me when you have such a cooling weather today, what’s best to do? Of course have afternoon nap, isn’t it?

It’s a cooling and raining Sunday!! And here I am dozing off soon!!!
Zzzzzz…..

Pissed with these news!

I actually kind of pissed and fed up every morning when you look at the papers, you will see those big headlines, ‘You Are Arrested!’, ‘You Are Charged!’, ‘Anwar is bailed out at what time’, ‘RPK is arrested!’, etc.

Everyday morning, we have no other news but only see these politicians are debating over oil price, sodomy cases, Mongolian murder, cronyism, and so on. Why can’t we have something like helping the country in building up the economy? Why can’t we have something like how to make use of PETRONAS’ $61B profits? Why can’t we have something like what has the Government done that attract many investors into our country??

Isn’t this is more fruitful in terms of helping the civilians, the people, the poor??

Our own oil company has produced so much profit and given a certain amount of it to the Government. Yet, our Government disagree to make use of the money to re-build certain states’ public infra-structure.

Many people asked me did I watch the other night debate between the 2 big shots. Honestly, I didn’t as I can’t bother much. Even I watch, what do they intend to do?? Yet the should be even more worried than the lower people that if this continues, this would definitely woo away many investors.

If this really happens, what about Malaysians?? They will have to face jobless problem, and they will have to face financial problems.

As far as I know, many younger generations are opting for migrating to other countries. Though they may be categorized as 3rd class citizen, yet, we do not have to see all these news each day, isn’t it?

Masayoshi Takanaka

Masayoshi Takanaka! I don’t who is he neither do I know how famous is he in Japan. But I can tell you if you like jazz music, I highly recommend his Fade to Blue album to you. That album is soothing and also easy to calm a person’s emotion.

A way of calming our own ups and downs is one way of doing is to listen to some soothing music.

In fact, I heard Fade to Blue once, unfortunately, no way you could get it in the market now, even eBay.

I am kind of regret for not buying it when I first saw it in the late 90’s. That time was selling RM90 over for just one simple CD. Only this album ‘Fade to Blue’ can’t find it anywhere. I even get friends and colleagues to watch out for me in Japan, it seems that it has stop production.

So, word of advice… whenever you like something and you think you will regret if you don’t get it or buy it. Better grab it!!

Customer Unsatisfaction!!

Will you be upset if someone, or rather the cosmetic promoter kept asking you the question that pertaining to your face, yet they can’t give you an answer but kept on accusing you for taking certain drugs that causes the skins allergy?

Well, I was not only upset, but also very angry and frustrated with the service that I was encountered when I was asking the promoter what happened to my face lately.

I’ve been using Sheseido brand for almost 10 over years, and all these years, I do not have any skin allergy problem nor dehydrated issue. But lately, my face has been having this skin allergy.

I know it is due to dehydrated, thus they were recommended me to use one of their product which is highly moisture. And mind you, that product isn’t cheap; it costs me about RM155, yet to count on the cleanser which I purchased from them for many years.

Anyway, when I went over to see them today, one of the promoters, by the name of Elaine Tan came to me, 1st question she asked, was it due to drug consuming. First of all, I told her, I did not take any medicine, nor any specific drugs too. Secondly, I told her, it cannot be hormone change, as I do not have any expecting symptoms thus, that could not be concluded as hormone change. Thirdly, I followed the processes in how to apply cleanser, softener, moisturiser and so on. And how could I still have the skin allergy problem.

Guess what, she doesn’t give me a proper advise, but kept accusing me for taking drugs that causes such allergy on my face.

I was so mad at that time and told her off that, if she can’t get me a solution right now, I would have rather change products. She kept silent for awhile yet still finds that I should not have such problem if I’ve been using their products for so many years.

Come on, as a customer service or so called promoter, shouldn’t be their expertise to tell their customer what happened and what next need to be resolved for such skin problem instead of concluded the customer had consumer certain medicine that causes such skin problem.

Well, that was not the only issue that made me mad. All these years, whenever they have any promotions, or any consultants came from Japan or Korea, they will call their customer one by one and inform them there’ll be a facial promotion, and asked us to support them. And guess what, I saw a Kiwi consultant today at the counter, yet, I wasn’t not inform about the promotion. And that promoter that assisted me was telling they do not my contact number. I was really mad at that time, I told her off, please check the record once again, I have been receiving calls from your counter, and how could you tell me that you do not have my contact number if your record??

I was really really upset and fed up at that point in time; I just walked out from their counter and decided to op for other products and services.

I suppose those that into customer service industry should know what is call Customer Is Always Right, and what does a Customer Satisfaction means!